I didn't really put too much thought at whether i am plus one or just one. Being single, to me, doesn't pose too many differences as if i am in a relationship with someone. But, it felt good though, not having to think about what to give her on February 14th. It is officially a normal and usual day. Like friday. Or Saturday.
Singling ourselves, is merely an option, rather than an "i don't have a choice" thing. Actually, we chose to be alone, consciously or not. Even when someone dumped us, it is still a choice. It is a choice, whether we would wallow in desperation of being alone, or get up and realize someone better out there might be waiting to accept the ring from our very hand. When we realize that we do actually choose to be alone (or not, for that matter) we would be able to clearly decide whatever step we want to take, since it was also obvious that we are in control of what occurs to us at the time being.
And now, if someone asks how i am going to celebrate my singledom, i would say: whatever way it is that can make me feel better about who i am. I'd learn to cook. I'd write poems to my friends. I'd blog. None of these so-called being with someone has anything to do with me feeling better about me. I took it as life will give it to me hard, like a smash in the face, that i should be with someone to comfort myself? But no, i told myself sometime ago, with or without someone by my side, i must be able to stand tall. If life doesn't slap me, i would do it myself, so that i have a stronger me in the future. And by stronger, i didn't imply as to not having feeling at all.
Valentine day will come. And I will embrace it. Kiss it in the face. Give to myself (or friends) chocolate in heart shape, for that is what people believe is the symbol of love. Sweet. Dark. And Soft inside. I love me. Single or plus one.
<Rocketeer Ksatriansyah>
PS: it is my first published writing in English, so feel free to knock me out with critics
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